I starting getting ill the week after I turned forty-nine…it was one health crisis after another. Why?

I began to have healing sessions with Susi in order to find out what was the matter with me. I sobbed through the first session…I could hardly sit without crying. There was so much ‘stuff,’ locked up in me that needed attention and healing…problems with my family, my son and relationships with friends.

In a one to one session, we sit facing each other quietly, with our eyes closed. Somehow, Susi is able to read my energy patterns. She sees, hears and feels where I hold ‘stuff.’ I focus on the issues that need healing in my life, and together we erase the trauma and pain, replacing it with healing and love. This is done experientially, (you don’t have to believe anything). I feel so much relief after a session - expanded and light. The sessions are actually quite life changing.

I have these sessions about once a month. The two most recent sessions have had a huge impact on my physical health. This is what happened in one of them.

Since the week after my forty-ninth birthday, I have had continuous health problems, and I just couldn’t seem to get out of this rut. In the session, we addressed this concern by going back into my past to look for patterns that might affect the way I view things and how I think. I remembered that both my mother and my mother-in-law became extremely ill at age fifty, and they both needed major surgery. I had just married, and I was in my early twenties at that time. My mom had a huge tumor removed, and she spent six weeks in the hospital in intensive care because her colon was nicked during the surgery. She got peritonitis and she almost died!

In a healing session, we cleared and healed the parts of me that were holding the intensity of this disturbing time in my life. I had actually been storing the emotional disturbance of what had happened to my relatives, in my cells. But I had no awareness of this and I had no idea of how to get to it. After I was cleared, I felt so relieved.

It had been a really good session, but when I came back in a month, I realized there was more work to do. I mentioned to Susi that I never felt I was going to live a long life. In my twenties, I began to think that I wouldn’t live past the age of thirty-five. There was no explanation for these thoughts, because both my mother and my mother-in-law had survived their ordeals, and I was perfectly healthy at that time. I have just always thought I would not live past thirty-five.

This time we did a regression with the intention of locating and clearing emotional memories which might explain why I have always thought my life would end at such an early age. The memories we were looking for in this session, were completely unconscious. My conscious mind had no recollection of these events, places or the people involved. In a deep and very relaxed state, we are able to contact my unconscious and open up these cellular memories.

Here, is what I saw, felt and experienced intensely during the healing session:

When I saw Clarise, I knew immediately that she was about thirty-five years of age. She appeared to be the caretaker of two elderly people…she did all the work. There were no other servants except the stable man. The scene took place in an earlier century, probably France. I kept feeling drawn to the stable man, so we looked into it and discovered that he had been Clarise’s lover and the two were deeply connected. He frequently traveled by horseback to other places, as a messenger. In this intense dreamlike vision, I saw that he went on a mission from which he never returned. Clarise was left in complete and utter despair; she was deserted and confused. Clarise didn’t physically die at age thirty five. It was her spirit that had died! And whoever she was, somehow, her traumatic experience had transferred into my energy field and my thoughts.

Susi watched and questioned me in order to bring the experience to consciousness. Then she found the disturbed energy patterns in my physical body, my chakras and the energy field around me. In the healing that followed, she focused on the repair and healing of the damaged areas. I felt a sense of well-being and emotional relief…a lifting. Since this session there has actually been physical healing as well…things have turned around for the better!

I am already planning my next healing session. My mother survived her crisis at age fifty, but she died ten years later at age sixty. With Susi’s help, I intend to clear the experience of her early death from my body, mind and spirit so I can live a long and healthy life!

A Note from Susi:
Was the experience a past life memory, a genetic emotional transference or just an archetypal pattern that this woman carried with her? We are all free to label the experience with whatever name feels right. The important point is this woman’s physical health, mental clarity, and emotional resilience, continue to improve. Her strength has an easeful quality, and she just sparkles when I see her – she is able to hold a lot of light. The session she tells about took place months ago.